Sting

I can’t explain what,

Though it makes me happy,

And sometimes not,

But whatever it is I am feeling,

The smiles I hide when I think about you,

The thrill I feel when I see you,

The flush I get while talking to you,

The zoo you give when I’m with you,

My fondness towards you,

Whether it is good or bad,

One thing’s for sure,

It makes me ecstatic,

But it’s really painful.

Something In-Between

I did not know I can be this broken. But I am now.

Nagsimula lahat sa isang simpleng Merry Christmas!” na nasundan ng mahahabang reply at walang katapusang kwentuhan. Di ko alam kung paano, pero ganun. Ang mga “Kamusta ka na?”, naging “Kumain ka na ba?” Habang tumatagal, nadadagdagan na yung mga tanong ng “Nasa bahay ka na ba?” o kaya naman “Magtext ka pag nasa bahay ka na ha.”  na naging “Pwede ba kitang ihatid sa inyo?”  At ang pinaka malinaw sa lahat, “Pwede ba kitang ligawan?”

Araw-araw na tayong magkatext. Yung tipong kahit Smart yung gamit mo, at Globe ako, naka unlitext to all networks tayo (though eventually, nag Globe ka na din naman). Yung tipong kahit office hours at magkasama lang naman sa iisang building, magkatext pa din. Kapag may lakad ako ng Sunday, alam mo kung sino ang kasama ko, kung saan ako pupunta, kung nasaan ako exactly at kung pauwi na ba ako. Kapag may lakad ka na hindi yung mga barkada natin ang kasama mo, para akong sirang plakang paulit ulit sinasabi sayo na wag kang uminom ng madami, hanggang dalawang bote lang. Alam kong tamad ka kumain kaya pag dinner time na, kinukulit na kita para kumain na halos maasar ka na dahil hindi kita tinatantanan hangga’t alam kong hindi ka pa din kumakain. At kapag nag text na ako sayo sa umaga, ako naman yung hindi mo tinatantanan kasi alam mong hindi pa ako bumabangon kahit 11am na. Nag aaway tayo, pero hindi tayo natutulog ng hindi tayo nagkakabati. Tulad nung sa isang officemate natin na kinaiinisan mo dahil sabi mo sakin mukhang pinopormahan ako. Ipinipilit ko sayo na hindi, pero sabi mo alam mo yun kasi lalaki ka kaya dumistansya ako sa kanya. Isang beses naman, birthday ng kasama mo sa division kaya sabi mo lalabas kayo at magiinom. Tapos bigla kang nagtext na nasa beer house na kayo pero wala yun sa original plan kaya hindi mo alam. Nag promise ka na no girls para sayo, pero sobrang inis ko sayo nun kaya siguro halos kakasend ko lang sayo ng text, magrereply ka agad.

Sabay tayo pumapasok sa office. Sabay tayong umuuwi after work. Pinadalhan mo pa nga ko ng Cafe Latte from McDo kasi natabig nung isang friend natin yung binili ko. Kinilig kaya ako nun. Sinundo mo pa ako pagkatapos ng OT ko ng Saturday sa South. February 13 yun kaya nag dinner tayo. Nag sorry ka pa kasi wala kang dalang flowers kasi sabi mo nagmamadali ka dahil ma-le-late ka na sa pagsundo ko sakin dahil na-traffic ka. Niloloko mo pa nga ko habang naglalakad tayo na buti pa yung mga nakakasalubong satin ang sweet. Tapos hinatid mo pa ko pauwi.

Pero hindi mo sinabi sa barkada natin yung nangyayari. At lalong hindi ako ang mauunang magsabi nun sa kanila dahil ayokong sakin manggaling. Bakit nga ba? Pero ok lang, kasi masaya ka naman, masaya naman ako. Masaya naman tayo. Yun naman yung mas importante di ba?

Ganun tayo. Walang label. Hindi tayo, pero parang tayo. Something in-between.

It took a long time before I admitted to myself that I am starting to fall for you. And yes, I did fell for you, falling for you every single day.

Hindi ko na ma-contain yung feelings ko kaya sinabi ko na sa isang close friend. Kay M. Sinabi ko sa kanya na yung isang daliri kong nakakapit para hindi tuluyang bumigay sayo, eh bumibitaw na. Pero bukod sakin, may nahulog na pala sayo. Si C. Si C na isa sa mga close friends ko. Si C na parang kapatid ko na. At sabi nya, mas complicated yung sitwasyon nya at sobrang nasasaktan sya dahil alam nyang wala kang gusto sa kanya. Pero hindi lang yun ang problema. Ang problema, may nangyari sa inyo. Friends with benefits. At ang mas malala, hindi lang isang beses may nangyari sa inyo ni C.

Pero sabi nga nila, Love is blind. Hindi lang siguro applicable ito sa physical appearance ng isang tao, kundi pati na rin sa mga ginawa o ginagawa nya. Kung mahal mo, hindi mo makikita ang kahit anong mali sa kanya. Kaya pinalagpas ko lang. Di ako nagsalita. Parang wala akong nalaman. Kinimkim ko na lang sa sarili ko. Inassume ko na wala ng nangyayari sa inyo dahil sa “something” natin, tutal last year pa naman daw yun. Balik tayo sa normal. Balik tayo sa pagitan ng “tayo” at hindi.

Isang beses, nakita ako ni S (isa sa mga close friend din namin ni C) na katext kita. Tinanong nya ko kung ano daw pinaguusapan natin. Sabi ko humihingi lang ako ng ballpen sayo. Totoo naman, hindi ako nagsinungaling pero part lang ng katotohanan yung sinabi ko. Tapos tinanong nya ko kung may “something” daw ba satin. Tumanggi ako, syempre. Kasi nga hindi mo naman sinasabi sa kanila at ayokong sakin manggaling yun. Akala ko bumenta, hindi pala. Ilang araw pagkatapos nun, pinapunta ako ni S sa office nila after work dahil may ipapakita daw syang video sakin. Pag pasok ko, nakaupo si C. Di ako mapakali kasi alam ko na kung anong mangyayari. Ni-lock ni S yung pinto at nag-usap kami. Ang dami kong nalaman. Nagulat ako kung gaano ako ka-tanga at ka-bulag para hindi malaman yung mga yun. At yung akala kong tapos na, di pa pala. May nangyayari pa din sa inyo ni C. Kung exam siguro to, baka bumagsak na ko dahil mukhang mali ang pagkakakilala ko sayo.

Umiyak ako, sa totoo lang, dahil feeling ko tinraydor ako. Magkaka-barkada tayo eh. Ikaw, ako, si C. Sabay sabay pa nga tayo kumain pag lunch. Pero bakit nangyari yung ganun? Bakit umabot sa ganun? Paano mo nagagawang maging ok, na parang walang nangyari, kapag magkakasama tayo? Paano mo nagawa sa amin yun? Alam mo namang sobrang close namin ni C di ba. Naisip mo ba na pag nalaman ko to, masasaktan ako? Akala ko ba sabi mo mahal mo ko? Paano mo nagawa sakin yun?

May ilang weeks din akong hindi nagrereply sayo. Hindi ko sinasagot yung tawag mo. Hindi ako nagpapakita sayo. Umiiwas ako. Pinaliit ko ang mundo ko para lang makapag tago sayo. Pero nahihirapan din ako kaya nakipag usap ako sayo. Ipinipilit mo na wala talagang nangyari sa inyo. Kung hindi ko pa sasabihing alam ko na yung nangyari, di ka pa aamin. Nag sorry ka at humingi ka ng second chance. Pero paano ko ibibigay ang second chance mo kung naibigay ko na sayo noong unang beses na pinili kong hindi magsalita tungkol sa nangyayari sa inyo ni C na akala ko hindi na mauulit? Paano pa ko magtitiwala sayo kung harap-harapan mo na pala akong niloloko?

Parang gusto kong magkulong na lang sa kwarto. Parang gusto ko na lang maglaho. Sana nga may time machine na lang para maibalik ko mula sa simula ang lahat ng ito. Baka hindi ko na lang pipiliin na maging ganito tayo. Hindi na lang ako magtetext sayo na pababa na ako ng van para sunduin mo. Hindi na lang ako sasama mag almusal sayo.  Hindi na lang ako magrereply sa mga text mo.

“Paano na tayo?” sabi mo.

Paano magiging tayo kung ginago mo ako?

Pero sa pagkakataong maibalik ko nga sa simula to, pipiliin ko pa din ang lahat ng to dahil naging masaya ako. Minahal kita, at sa tingin ko mahal pa din kita. Mahirap, oo. Masakit, sobra. Pero alam kong kailangan kong matuto sa mga nangyari. Kailangan kong maramdaman ang mga to. Pero sa ngayon…

…wala ng “tayo.”

Walang magiging “tayo.”

Song of the Week: I Lay My Love On You – Westlife

As you know, Shane Filan of Westlife had his first solo show here in the Philippines on Wednesday, 01 October 2014 at the World Trade Center to promote his solo album. And speaking of Westlife, this just brought back memories from the late 90’s when we go crazy over boy bands like Backstreet Boys, A1, *NSYNC, etc. and those cassette tapes and Walkmans. So as a tribute to the music of the late 90’s , let me share to you one of my favorite songs from Westlife. Please feel free to feel nostalgic (and maybe old?). 🙂

Title: I Lay My Love On You
Artist: Westlife
Album: Coast to Coast
Genre: Pop
Year: 2001

Just a smile and the rain is gone
Can hardly believe it (yeah)
There’s an angel standing next to me
Reaching for my heart

Just a smile and there’s no way back
Can hardly believe it (yeah)
But there’s an angel calling me
Reaching for my heart

I know, that I’ll be okay now
This time it’s real

I lay my love on you
It’s all I wanna do
Everytime I breathe I feel brand new
You opened up my heart
Show me all your love and walk right through
As I lay my love on you

I was lost in a lonely place
Could hardly believe it (yeah)
Holding on to yesterdays
Far, far too long

I believe its okay ’cause this time it’s real

I lay my love on you
It’s all I wanna do
Everytime I breathe I feel brand new
You opened up my heart
Show me all your love and walk right through
As I lay my love on you

I never knew that love could feel so good

Like a once in a lifetime
You changed my world

I lay my love on you
You make me feel brand new
Show me your love and walk right through
As I lay my love on you

I lay my love on you
It’s all I wanna do
Everytime I breathe I feel brand new
You opened up my heart
Show me all your love and walk right through
‘Cause I lay my love on you

I lay my love on you
You make me feel brand new
You opened up my heart
Show me all your love and walk right through
As I lay my love on you

As I lay my love on you

Song of the Week: Choices – To Kill A King

Since I was born with the love for music, I decided to post a song every Sunday. Songs that I consider one of my favorites. Basically, songs that are on my playlist. Hope you’ll like em! 😀

So to start this stuff, I’d like to share with you this awesome track from a British band composed of Ralph Pelleymounter (vocals, acoustic guitar), Josh Platman (bass), Josh Taffel (drums), Grant McNeill (electric guitar) and Ben Jackson (synth, keys):

Title: Choices
Artist: To Kill A King
Album: Cannibals with Cutlery
Genre: Alternative (according to iTunes)
Year: 2013

I never took away your crutch
Just became it day by day
Blood filling up our boots
What’s the use in talking?
All you want do is walk
It’s all you want do
This is how the summer ends
This is how the summer ends

You never took away my crutch
Just became it day by day
Blood filling up our boots
What’s the use in talking?
Eyes are open finally
Eyes are open finally
All you want do is walk
It’s all you want to do, do and
This is how the summer ends
This is how the summer ends

I, I have the same choices as you do
As you do
When you fall
Fall like I knew you would
Lead me down, down, down
Lead me down

I never showed you what I want
You never told me what you need
A match bursting into flames
And all is dust soon enough
Eyes are open finally
Eyes are open finally
And all you want do is walk
It’s all you want do, do and
This is how the summer ends
This is how the summer ends

I, I have the same choices as you do
As you do
When you fall
Fall like I knew you would
Lead me down, down, down
Lead me down

He’s on your doorstep
He’s ladened with flowers
This garden is freezing, teasing
You’re leaving me for hours

New Song + Sziget Festival 2014

So last time, I wrote about my “obsession” to BΔSTILLE here. And I’ve written about how excited I was when I heard (or read) the announcement that they are releasing a new song.

I actually read it on Tumblr saying, a new song will be released on the 8th of August and it is on their store. So to make sure it was, I checked it. It says that you can pre-order the Oblivion Limited Edition 7″ vinyl which features the new song bad_news (and yes, there’s really an underscore in the title). And the release date (DD/MM/YY): 08/08/14. I was so excited that I babbled about it to my friend (who’s also a fangirl, but of One Direction, so she probably knows how I feel) because it was just 2 days before the release of the song. And then on August 8, the release date was changed to 08/09/14. I admit, I was sort of upset that moment. I mean, I was so ready for the new song and then bam! You’ll have to wait again. Way to crush my excitement there. And I guess it was a bad news for other Stormers too. What an appropriate pun, right? Those sneaky lads.

But after a few days, this happened:

and then this:

 

This really made my day! I wasn’t able to hear it on BBC Radio 1 though because of time zones. But the very good news is we have bad_news already! Yey! All I can say is that they do not disappoint. They never fail to make good music. It was stuck in my head ever since I heard it to be honest. Like their other songs, it was bloody amazing! Or is it because I’m an avid fan? Either way, I love it! So I would like to share with you the amazing new track from them. Here it is (by the way, this video was just uploaded few minutes ago. And yes, I am writing this on August 20 and will be posted few days or weeks from now):

Aside from having the new song, I got to see them perform live… via live stream. Thank goodness for modern technology and live streams! It was their gig at the Sziget Festival 2014 in Budapest so again, time differences. Their set will be at 5:45 PM in their time, which will be 11:45 PM in the Philippines. As time gets closer to their set, I feel like I’m about to hyperventilate (but I’m not, really) and I was starting to scream in my texts to a friend. That’s how thrilled I am.

Sziget Festival 2014, Budapest

And when they’re already on stage, my eyes were glued to my screen, abandoning the messages of my friend (so sorry, friend). It was heart-stopping. I know I was not there in the venue exactly, but I felt like I was also there. I was even singing with Dan in every song while constantly pounding my table like it was a drum set.

It was also quite funny how Dan, who wrote their songs, messed up the lyrics of Blame and Oblivion. I mean, who forgot the lyrics of the song you wrote which you happened to constantly play during your tours? Well, maybe it was because of the sea of people watching them. Knowing Dan (not like we’re close friends, but I would love to be), he really gets nervous when performing. But I don’t care. Dan forgetting the lyrics is the most adorable thing for me.

By the way, there’s a f***load of you (guys). It’s terrifying.

– Dan Smith

One of their trademarks is during Flaws, Dan would roam around the crowd. At Sziget Festival, there was like a walk way at the middle of the pack, so Dan wasn’t able to join them. But the best part of it was when Dan climbed up this big clock (it has a scaffolding around it) in front of the stage. Dan, who always has the impeccable timing on when to go back to stage, was stuck at the clock. I guess he really enjoyed it up there.

Sorry, I got stuck. Never climbed up big bits of scaffolding in the middle of the song. Bad idea.

– Dan Smith

I stayed up so late (until past 1:00 AM, Philippine time) just to watch them even if I had to wake up at around 5:30 AM the next day (or should I say later?). But it was totally worth it! It was their best gig yet. For me. They were just so happy on stage. Maybe because of the response they got from their new song. I don’t know. But they were so freaking happy and it also made me happy.

The day after, I found out that there would be a replay of their set again via live stream. Since I cannot get over it, I watched it again. I’ll just never get tired of watching them perform and hearing their songs. That’s how I love BΔSTILLE. And it would really be wickedly amazing if they’ll have a gig here in the Philippines. X

Sziget Festival 2014, Budapest

Sziget Festival 2014, Budapest

Sziget Festival 2014, Budapest

P.S. Sorry for the crappy screenshot. And again, sorry if there are grammar mistakes or whatever. 😉

Bum no more!

May isang taon din akong nagpahinga pagkatapos ko ng college. 2013 ako gumraduate pero hindi agad ako naghanap ng trabaho. Sabi kasi sa akin ni Mama at ng iba kong kamag-anak na bata pa naman daw ako. 19 years old. Dahil kakagraduate ko pa lang noon, syempre, sabik na sabik ako sa bakasyon. Ikaw ba naman ang magkabakasyon ng halos isang linggo lang kada term noong college, sinong hi-hindi sa napakagandang alok na mas mahaba sa isang linggong bakasyon?

Ang ilang months lang sana na bakasyon ko ay humaba ng humaba dahil na din sa pag-uwi namin sa probinsya. Biglaan ang pagpapa-renovate at repair ng bahay namin sa Batangas dahil wala pang gagawing bahay ang mga trabahador ng kapatid ni Lolo kaya naisingit sa trabaho nila ang bahay namin. Yung inaakala kong 1-2 months para sa renovate at repair, tumagal ng 3-4 months dahil madaming kailangang i-repair sa bahay at mukhang pinatagal talaga nung mga trabahador. Tapos, yung pagpipintura na akala naming 1 month lang, umabot ng 2 months.

June nung mag apply ako sa isang government agency. Hindi ko na sasabihin kung saan. Hehe. Monday yun at buti na lang nasaktuhan ko na may exam sa Friday kaya nakapag-exam na din ako agad. Isa lang ang masasabi ko sa exam. Mahirap. Naging mahirap din siguro sya dahil sa time limit. Yung ibang part nga ng exam, 15 minutes lang ang time limit. At yung magkasamang Math at English, 45 minutes lang. Tapos may essay pa. Pagkatapos ng exam, 3-4 weeks daw bago namin malaman kung pasado ba kami o hindi.

Nawalan na ako ng pag-asa dahil nahirapan talaga ako sa exam at hindi ko sigurado kung tama ang mga sagot ko. At lalo pa akong pinanghinaan ng loob dahil 3rd week na, wala pa din akong natatanggap na kahit anong result mula sa kanila. Tinawagan ko na ang HR para itanong kung may result na. Wala pa daw. Umabot na ng August pero wala pa din akong natatanggap na result kaya tumawag na ulit ako (sorry sa mga taga-HR kung nakulitan kayo sakin). Tinanong ko ulit kung may result na. Kinabahan ako nung sinabi ng kausap ko na may result na daw. Sabi ko, wala pa akong natatanggap na result kaya naman sya na mismo ang nagsabi sa akin ng result. Nakapasa daw ako sa exam! Yehey!

Makalipas ang ilang linggo, nakatanggap ako ng text para sa initial interview, Monday ng 9:30AM. 7:00AM kami sumakay ni Mama ng taxi dahil hindi na kami makasakay ng bus o jeep at baka ma-late na ako. Sa halip na mas maaga kaming makarating, mas lalo pang nagtagal ang byahe namin dahil kung saan mas mabigat yung traffic (Las Pinas at Paranaque), doon kami idinaan nung driver. Nung una, chill pa ako dahil masyado pa namang maaga. Pero nung malapit na mag-8:30 at malayo pa kami, kinabahan na ko. Medyo pinapagalitan na ni Mama yung driver at hindi ko na din napigilan ang sarili ko dahil inis na inis ako sa driver. Tina-tap ko na yung paa ko sa sahig ng taxi nya at humihinga ng malalim sabay bulong ng “Grabe! Sobrang traffic! Dapat talaga sa may coastal na lang tayo dumaan.” Napapakamot na lang ng ulo yung driver. Siguro kaya nya kami doon idinaan, para mas tumaas yung metro.

Pero buti na lang hindi ako na-late. Mga 10 minutes before 9:30AM kami dumating. Akala ko talaga ma-le-late ako. Pag dating ko sa may HR, 3 lang kami. Dahil unang dumating sa akin yung dalawa, sila ang nauna. Pagpasok nila, may dumating pa ulit na isa. Apat na kaming i-interview-hin. Pagkatapos nung dalawang nauna, ako na ang tinawag. Buti na lang at mabait yung nag-interview sakin. Parang naging mas friendly pa yung environment dahil yung nag-interview sa akin ay taga Cavite din pala. Pagkatapos ng interview, sinabi nya sa akin na ire-refer daw nya ako sa isang office at itetext ulit ako para sa next interview.

Nakatanggap agad ako ng text pagakatapos ng isang araw. Ang final interview ko daw ay sa Friday, 8:00AM. Dahil ayoko na maulit yung nangyari noong initial interview, 5:30AM pa lang umalis na kami ng bahay. Wala pang masyadong pasahero ng mga oras na yun kaya naman nakasakay kami agad. Dumating kami ni Mama ng 6:30AM kaya umupo muna kami at kumain sa McDo para maghintay ng oras. Pumunta na ako ng 7:35AM sa office. Mga past 10:00AM na ata ako nainterview dahil madami kami. Swerte ko lang dahil bukod sa mabait naman yung nag-interview sa akin, parehas kami ng course at school sa college kaya naman parang naging kwentuhan lang din yung interview ko. Tinanong nya ko kung sino yung mga naging professor ko. It turns out, yung isang nabanggit ko ay naging professor nya din. Binigyan nya pa ako ng advice sa pagwowork ko sa department na yun. Pagkatapos ng interview, nag-Congratulations sya sa akin.

Pagkalipas ng ilang araw, nakatanggap ako ng e-mail galing sa HR. Tanggap na daw ako! Yehey! Pinag-ayos na din ako ng mga requirements. Sinabi ko agad kay Mama. Sa sobrang tuwa nya, tumawag agad sya sa mga tita ko sa Batangas para ibalita. Haha! Naipasa ko na yung mga requirements na kailangan at sabi sa HR, ang target start of work daw namin ay sa September 22.

I am officially bum no more! Thank you Papa Jesus!

Stormer forever! Δ

BΔSTILLE

From left to right: Will Farquarson, Kyle Simmons, Dan Smith and Chris “Woody” Wood

Have you ever been so into a band that it started to conquer your Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, your personal blog and basically, your life? Posting their videos, quoting their songs, creating gifs of them, liking and reblogging every picture of them, mentioning every band members in your tweets hoping that they’ll reply to you on Twitter and talk about them non-stop to someone.

Have you ever loved a song/s and can’t get it out of your head for a very long time? I’m not talking about days, but months (and still counting).

Have you ever loved everything a certain band sung? From their different covers to their original songs (studio version or acoustic). Everything.

Have you ever been so excited about an announcement of the release of a new track from a band? And when it finally premiered, you feel like hyperventilating (but you’re not) because of excitement.

Have you ever feel so proud for a band like they’re your own? From seeing where they are now to hearing their song played in a public place for the first time.

Well, I never imagined myself fangirl over a band this hard and fell head over heels for them. But because of them it happened.

It was early 2014 when I first heard their song on radio here in the Philippines. It was called Pompeii. That moment, I instantly loved the song. I didn’t know who was the artist behind it, so the first thing I did is search for it on Google. That’s when I discovered BΔSTILLE, a band from London, UK with four members: Dan Smith (vocals, also the writer of their songs), Kyle Simmons (keys), Will Farquarson (bass) and Chris “Woody” Wood (drums).

I got interested in their band that I looked them up on YouTube to find other songs. I downloaded All This Bad Blood (album) and Other People’s Heartache Part 1 & 2 (mixtapes – covers and mash-up of their songs and other songs with dialogues from old movies). I was not disappointed because I loved every song in their album and mixtapes. I also started to watch their live performances on YouTube and I was amazed that they sound even better live. Definitely no auto-tune. And the lyrics of their songs, they are not your usual crappy lyrics because they are narrative and is inspired by history (ex. Pompeii – eruption of Mr. Vesuvius in 79 AD that destroyed the city of Pompeii in Italy), Bible story (ex. Daniel in the Den – he was thrown into the lion’s den for praying to God and not to the king), literature (ex. Icarus – he and his father, Daedalus, attempted to escape from Crete with the use of wings made of wax, but melted as Icarus flew close to the sun causing him to fall into the sea and drown), TV series (ex. Laura Palmer – the main character who was murdered and served as the catalyst for the events in Twin Peaks series from the 90’s created by David Lynch and Mark Frost) and life events (Durban Skies – dedicated to Dan’s parents who were both from Durban, South Africa where they also met, fell in love and got married). I must say that Dan really is a good writer, probably because he is a straight A English major. Smarty pants he is and I love it!

Aside from their music, one thing I liked about them is their personality. Even if they are starting to become popular (not yet here in the Philippines though but I hope they will be soon), they are still very grounded. After gigs, if they have time, they try to meet their fans even though they don’t need to. Dan handles their official social media accounts to stay in touch with their fans and lucky fans even get a reply from the members (I haven’t yet, though). I also love the fact that the members (especially Dan and Kyle I think) wears the shirts their fans give. And I swear, they really have sense of humor which make them very adorable. And all of them got the looks, by the way. Talk about total package.

Ever since I discovered them, I never stopped listening to their songs and watching their videos. I loved every bit of them. And this never happened to me before in my entire life. I became a fan. A Stormer (what BΔSTILLE’s fans are called).

You know, I could talk (or write) about them non-stop and this is just the start of it. But for now, I’ll leave you with these videos. Hope you’ll like it! X

P.S. I’m so sorry if there are wrong grammars or whatever. And by the way, please note that the photo and videos are not mine. 🙂

Sunday Mass

Tuwing Sunday, nagsisimba kami ni Mama sa SM. Pero sa lahat ng nag-mass doon, si Fr. Joey Faller ang pinaka gusto ko. Hehe. Pag kasi sya yung nag-ma-mass, hinding hindi ka talaga aantukin. Sobrang maiintindihan mo yung homily kasi kino-connect nya sa totoong buhay (with matching actions minsan) yung mga gusto nyang iparating. Tapos may halong kwento pa galing sa mga eksena ng Legal Wife at ibang Kapamilya teleseryes. Sya na ata ang pinaka-cool na paring nakilala ko. Kaso hindi na sya nag-ma-mass sa SM eh.

But, that’s another story.

Kaninang umaga, nung nagsimba kami ni mama, bago yung pari. Hindi ko lang maalala kung anong pangalan nya at kung saan sya nag-se-serve pero so far, sya pa lang yung pari na nagustuhan ko yung homily aside from Fr. Faller. Siguro kasi parehas sila ng approach. Ginagawa nilang “light” yung homily.

“Magandang umaga, madlang people!” Yan ang bati nya sa amin nung homily na. Oh di ba, ang lakas maka-It’s Showtime. May sinabi pa sya sa kalagitnaan ng na, “Paki-explain. Labyu.” Bagets na bagets di ba? Haha!

Anyway, ang gusto ko talagang i-share ay yung kinwento nya. Hindi ko alam kung totoo ba yun o gawa-gawa lang, pero natuwa talaga ako. So, eto yung kwento:

May isang lalaking mayaman na kilalang kilala sa buong mundo dahil sa kanyang koleksyon ng mga mamahaling paintings na gawa ng mga kilalang pintor. Meron syang apat na anak.

Nabuntis ulit ang asawa nya sa pang lima nyang anak. Pero namatay yung asawa nya habang ipinapanganak yung bata at yung bata naman ay mentally handicapped. Sobrang nalungkot ang lalaki. Naisip nya, bakit nagkaganun ang buhay nya? Namatay yung asawa nya at naiwan sa kanya ang isang batang mentally handicapped na hindi nya kayang alagaan.

Dahil mayaman naman sya, kumuha sya ng yaya para alagaan yung bata. Ipininta din nya ang bata dahil sa sobrang pagmamahal nya dito. Pero hindi rin nagtagal ang buhay ng bata at namatay din. Sobrang nalungkot ulit yung lalaki at hindi nagtagal ay namatay din dahil sa depression.

Sa pagkamatay ng lalaki, ipina-auction ang mga mamahaling paintings. Pero may instructions sya na kung ipapa-auctions ang mga ito, kailangang mabili muna ang painting ng anak nya. Sobrang daming taong pumunta sa auction para mabili yung mga paintings pero hindi sila makapagsimula dahil walang bumibili ng painting ng anak nya.

Dumating ang yaya ng bata at nakita nya ang painting. Sabi nya, “Ako na lang po ang bibili ng painting na yan dahil ako po ang nag-alaga dyan. Mahal na mahal ko po yan. Kaso 20 Pesos lang ang laman ng bulsa ko.” Sabi naman ng mga tao, “Sige, ibigay mo na sa kanya yang painting sa halagang 20 Pesos para masimulan na talaga ang auction.” Pumayag naman ang taga-pamahala ng auction. Ibinigay nya ang painting at sinabing, “Tapos na po ang auction.” Nagalit ang mga tao dahil hindi pa sila nakakapagsimulang mag-auction ay tapos na agad ito. Sabi ng taga-pamahala, “May isa pa pong instruction ang may ari ng mga painting na ito na ayaw niyang ipasabi sa inyo. Kung sino man ang bumili ng painting ng kanyang anak, sa kanya mapupunta ang lahat ng mga paintings.”

 

Edited (16 August 2014): Nag mass ulit yung pari na sinasabi ko sa SM kanina, alam ko na yung pangalang nya! Fr. Joeffrey Zacarias pala. 🙂

Your Song (My One and Only You) – Parokya ni Edgar

Alam ko na gaya ko, idolo o paboritong banda nyo din ang Parokya ni Edgar. At dahil sa open letter ni Metaporista para kay Chito Miranda, naisip ko na ibahagi sa inyo ang isa sa mga paborito kong kanta nila.

Lyrics:

It took one look
Then forever laid out in front of me
One smile, then I died
Only to be revived by you

There I was
Thought I had everything figured out
Goes to show just how much I know
‘Bout the way life plays out

I take one step away
Then I find myself coming back to you
My one and only, one and only you

Now I know
That I know not a thing at all
Except the fact that I am yours
And that you are mine

Ooh,
They told me that this wouldn’t be easy
And no
I’m not one to complain

I take one step away
Then I find myself coming back to you
My one and only one and only
I take one step away
Then I find myself coming back to you
My one and only, one and only you.